By Jae Vitug | World of Thoughts ©
Diamonds are often conceived as the strongest, the most beautiful, and the best find.
Drop a diamond on a sea of gold, wouldn’t it be the easiest to find rather than looking for the rarest piece of gold?
Drop a gold on a sea of diamonds, wouldn’t you still have chosen a diamond?
Isn’t the Holy Grail worth more than any diamond there is?
This resembles people’s misconception on choosing the best partner. They would consistently want whom humanity defines as perfect, and perfect, being, the diamonds.
Though it sounds vague, but I’d choose that one extraordinary gold.
I’d choose you.
February 23, 2018
Like everyone, I’ve had my fair share of both amazing and horrifying dating experiences too.
Looking back to it, well, let’s just say, it has been colorful.
But ended last year, I’ve learnt to love myself first. I’ve realized how you shouldn’t go for someone who would just temporarily fill a void in your heart.
It shouldn’t be about convenience. It should about who completes you.
Today, with my sanity being stretched on all ends: family, university, social, or work-related issues, etc… I’m surprised to have had caught feelings, and in the most inconvenient and unexpected way.
And I know you have your own stuff to deal with too, but I don’t want to rule out our possibilities. I’m not backing down now. If anything, I shouldn’t fear this, because I don’t want to look back someday and regret not holding on.
I admit that there are moments when you make me feel horrible because you’re hesitant to let me in, but trust me, it’s been well compensated by you making me feel amazing every time we’re together.
You stun me with a different side of you each day, constantly giving me something to look forward to.
I know it might be too early, we might’ve been just starting, we might be moving too fast, but there is this energy, that vibe, that only us would understand.
You inspire me, you make me feel alive, you help me breathe, and you’ve found a whole new person in me that I’ve only been discovering now too myself.
I wish for me to be the same to you…
Hence, that’s why I always ought to remind you, don’t fear. Acknowledge your capabilities, because you are smart and competent. I want you to realize how exceptional you are in the eyes of the people who believe in you.
Be optimistic, and always, always be positive, stop overthinking, don’t doubt, just do you.
Please don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to change you love, in fact, I want to help free you from your own demons. I want to help you reveal the greatest version of yourself, and to grow with you, no matter what the current situation is.
March 4, 2018
Within the past month that I have known you, you’ve easily become the highlight of my days. The first thought when I wake up in the morning and the the last before I close my eyes to sleep.
You’ve become that priority I don’t dare put myself a limit to.
Whenever I look into your eyes, I see. You are in pieces, but these pieces I’ve fully welcomed because darling no one is perfect. We’re all damaged and broken in one way or another. And believe me, despite what you may think, there’s nothing wrong with being messed up. The flaws and baggages that you’ve brought are what makes you beautiful.
You told me you were tired, of leaving, of being away from your friends and family, of meeting new people, of always moving and adapting to a completely different country, and of not being able to do what you want to do yet.
Watching you still able to function in this society normally despite your struggles, earns you my respect.
Through those bits of scars you’ve shown me, I never felt it in me to judge you. I want you to know, that you’re in the hands of someone who, even on the roughest nights, will show you the face of understanding instead of the face of disappointment.
In me I hope you find a patient heart.
Understand that the sole purpose of healing you, one wound at a time, spawns satisfaction through my soul.
I am falling in love with you, and willingly, I am slowly giving all of myself to you.
Because you make me so happy, so so happy…
I know we have our differences, a lot of differences actually, but I absolutely believe, that that’s what completes you and me.
Faith has given us halves, halves representing what we each don’t have, to try and put together in order to finish a single jigsaw puzzle.
I am writing this because to me, you deserve to be written about.
To me, you are worth it.
To me, you are golden.
And all those people who have chosen a diamond, would later on learn, that even the strongest, can be destroyed, even more so, by their ownself.
So stay you, stay unique, stay beautiful…
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